Sunday, June 29, 2008

...eMoTiOnS rUnNiNg My ThOuGhTs...

human beings never ever learn to appreciate till things are gone...
always pushing blames and responsibilities away...
and running away from all problems and obstructions...

if you love and care...show it out...
if you hate and feel unfair...voice out...

why wait???
why wait till everything had happened???
why wait till after pushing away the blames and pin-pointing???
why wait till after hurting then you go about declaring???

memeories and songs shared...
problems encountered...
presents exchanged...
never seemed to have meant anything...

your love...is so complex...
your thinking...are so self-centered...
you claim to know and understand...
but nothing would ever ever ever stay put...
everything changes even for the least bit...

nothing is impossible...
it just take a little effort to make a difference...
and you've never noticed because you're not willing to...

bu zai hu shou yi bu jie yi...
bu jie yi shou yi bu zai hu...

waiting is never the solution...
should rather think of solutions to the problem...
speak what you mean...and mean what you say...
don't make empty promises...

wanting others to know then share clearly...
don't go about bitting the bush...
you're just toying around with my feeling...

your every word and action affects me...
and honestly...i'm tired...
tired of playing such xin li zhang with you for so long...

--<--@ happiness is a choice that requires effort at times...*emo-ing*

me myself & i 01:33

Monday, June 16, 2008

...to my very special friend...

it's always about dance...about the club...

if we don't say...
everyone would say and thought that we're the best of friends...

yet then again...are we???

everything we started out with is all cause of a passion...
we had built everything up by trust...by hope...
by goals...by interest...by love...

but because of our post...
because of the club...
we've been into endless arguements...

it affects me...
it affects me totally and greatly...
and i trust and know that it affects you too...

i love you very much...
no matter how many times you've disappointed me...

and no...no that i want to end our relation...
because we've just started...
and going to the next level...

but it hurts...
and it hurts very badly...
i do not know where to start...nor to end...

all i can say is that...i really love you...*cries*

me myself & i 23:59

...meixian is offically a member of the club...

everytime with regards to club politics and issues...
i feel so stressed...and upset...
never once did not not shed my tears...

but why everyone seems to enjoy creating problems...
yet leaving me there alone to clean up their mess???

telling me that you guys want to help...
yet why?! why create problems and issues for me?!

i'm tierd...am utterly disappointed...
no longer do i want to carry on with all this...

since you guys can dance better than me...
since you guys think you all are wiser and more decisive than me...
this club is now officially in you guy's hand...

with regards to club matters...
please revert to treasa...

meixian is no longer going to bother...
unless otherwise told...

me myself & i 23:53

Friday, June 06, 2008

...sEeInG sTaRrY sTaRs EvErYwHeRe...

have been folding STARS since tuesday...
though i'm a star fan...lolx...
it's a little too much liao...
never stopped folding...
fingers arms eyes and neck are aching...

hahahazzz...
it's super ADDICTIVE...
i just couldn't stop...

anyways...next two weeks are holiday...
if you happen to be free on the 10 & 11 June...
do come by blk E.307 between 10am ~ 4pm...
yes!!! to fold stars...
they aiming for 300,000 if i never remember wrongly...

it's for breaking some Singapore's record...
and also for CHARITY!!!
have a heart and come down to support!!!
see you there!!!

me myself & i 21:48

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

...My tHoUgHtS nOw...

you know what???

i'm going to announance it to them tomorrow...

i know this decision made will not please all...
i know some or even many may raise certain issues...

but after much consideration...
this is definitely the best for the club...
therefore...i'm ready to face all that will come...

i'll explain everything...
whether or not they want to listen i cannot control...
because some mindset i cannot change...

it's not fair that such mess were left to me to clean up...
with no support and no understanding...
yet only stress and expectations...
i swear that i will put things in place before passing it on...
because it's even more unfair to let the next batch handle that...

now i feel so good...
because finally i'm getting somewhere...
what i set out to put everything right are starting to form...

yet now only then i see the true side of everyone...
no longer do i know if i should be angry or rather disappointed...

PS to Era Hilarious GreenApple PewPew FeiFei & NR20 click:
i want to thank you people that really stood by me...
because most of you are not even in the club...
thank God for blessing me with you people...if not i guess by now.........
i may have been driven to my wits and gone into depression already...
[though i know you all say i live in IMH, but that's not the point]...
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

me myself & i 01:58

EMOTIONAL

Mei Xian
nursing student
...full-time...
lamer
stoner
dreamer
...part-time...
having a break

LOVE LIFE

sleep eat dream
especially sushi
mango pudding cake
ice-cream chocolate

WISH LIST

More Clothes
White "Classy" Tote
Sports Bag
Lots of Pumps & Heels
A Wallet
Perm My Hair
New Belts
Digital Camera
DS Lite
Undergo Lasik
Attend a Shoe Design Course
Lots & Lots of $$$$
**need a job right now**
Try New Stuff to Build Confidence

MESSAGE

THINK POSITIVE...

it's the little little things in my life that allow me to hang on... no matter how life is...it's just the perception point that varies the outcome view... my life isn't empty but half-filled...and i'm contented...

DARLINKS

HISTORY

July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
October 2008
November 2008
April 2009

VOICE OUT