i haven updated for ages... it's not that i have been too busy... it's just that i had so much in mind... that i do not know where to begin with...
today at this point...it marks a new day's begining... this week is more or less over... i should say it's been a...hmmm... erm...rather "interesting" week for me...
suddenly today...everything was so clear to me... i saw through people's actions and character... and it really made me wondered WHY... there are so many whys... but then again...why do we even compare???
is it fair to compare??? what sets the comparison marking??? who judges all the comparisons??? how exactly are comparison made??? and was there a need to even compare???
it not nice to put people down... and it's also not nice being put down upon... what's more from who that should actually understood us...
but i'm indeed thankful for all these happenings throughout this week... i know i have not been voicing out how stressed i felt... seriously speaking...after 2350hrs just now...... i felt the sense of relise like never before!!!
i've been under all this stress and pressure since thrown this job... i've been telling myself that i will be strong... that no matter what happened i will hang in there... but no matter how i lie to myself...... i was always at the edge of breaking down... because i never get the support i needed... and nobody was there for me like they said they would be...
the only support i had all this while was SAO... be it many a times i went up to edelweis to say take me off this post... SAO stood by me all this while... they were the only ones that adviced... they were the only ones that provided me with choices... they were the only ones that never push me to my wits...
i've sent over 80 messages in less than 10mins... and that i've heard what most of you had said... i'm so glad!!! beyond words could explain my happpiness!!! that over this few days...people saw and felt what i did over 10 months... and that from NOW onwards...IT'S OUR NEW BEGINING!!!
our passion burns for dance... we are in this club together... we work as one... we support each person... and most importantly... we are here to learn together...
i thank God... thank Him for treating us unfairly... thank Him for letting all this happened in just four days...
i'm so proud of every single one of you!!! because of this happenings...we stood as one... we supported each and everyone emotionally... for the first time ever in this club i felt such bond!!! and together from now... this bond will only burn even stronger!!! that we will only work even closer together!!! that nobody can break this special bonding in us!!! we shall and we will sail through all storms together!!!
PS: thanks for all the support today... i love you all Danz INC.!!! we can do it!!! and we WILL do it!!!
me myself & i 01:05
EMOTIONAL
Mei Xian
nursing student
...full-time...
lamer
stoner
dreamer
...part-time...
having a break
LOVE LIFE
sleep eat dream
especially sushi
mango pudding cake
ice-cream chocolate
WISH LIST
More Clothes
White "Classy" Tote
Sports Bag
Lots of Pumps & Heels
A Wallet
Perm My Hair
New Belts
Digital Camera
DS Lite
Undergo Lasik
Attend a Shoe Design Course
Lots & Lots of $$$$
**need a job right now**
Try New Stuff to Build Confidence
MESSAGE
THINK POSITIVE...
it's the little little things in my life that allow me to hang on...
no matter how life is...it's just the perception point that varies the outcome view...
my life isn't empty but half-filled...and i'm contented...
