...a MeSsAgE tHaT i ShOuLd sAy LoNg AgO... i once thought i was being dumb... but now from the way you say things... i realise that it was you being childish...... i am sorry that you have to go down to auditorium less frequent in order to avoid bumping into me... your attention... is something i realise i am getting very often... maybe you do see me frequently... but apparently...i have a problem which you do not know... that is i cannot spot a person/ people in a crowd...
to state the fact... i never once did let go completely... no matter how long it was... i guess 4years odd does not make any difference... because the person who i was with for the longest time of my life... does not know me... for failing to let you know the me inside out... i do not know i should be disappointed in myself...or in you... no matter how much you had hurt me... no matter what you said to your friends... no matter how much your friends had intruded into my privacy... i had let it all past... because deep down inside... my love for you was still there... till the point that you look me up to say that you care as a friend... that you are willing to help with my problems... that you will be there to listen to my sorrows... my love for you was still there...increasing...... i read this phase somewhere once... if a couple can still remain as friends after they broke up... there are only two simple reasons... one...they still have feelings for each other... two...one of them just hope to muo muo de fu chu... i was so touched when i heard the song you played for me on your blog... the songs you chose one after another for me were songs you sung... that brings back lots of memories...lots of happy memories... which melted me so much... that i want to tell you "i love you"... but then......you stabbed me right at my heart once more...... on one hand...you state that they are for me... on the other hand...very same songs are for someone else too... dots... i did told you sometime ago to leave me alone... because i do not want to fall any deeper into this tangled feeling of my own... i feel so super stupid...so kok... so what if i still had feelings for you??? so what if i had been waiting??? i was nothing but a fool... a fool waiting like a pathetic idiot... for something which would never happen for the second time again... i thank you for everything... be it causing me to fall in love with you once again... or be it causing me feel more hurt...and much like a fool once more... thank you...thank you for letting me see the clear picture... your love... was something that i longed for... but something i will never get...
me myself & i 03:54
EMOTIONAL
Mei Xian
nursing student
...full-time...
lamer
stoner
dreamer
...part-time...
having a break
LOVE LIFE
sleep eat dream
especially sushi
mango pudding cake
ice-cream chocolate
WISH LIST
More Clothes
White "Classy" Tote
Sports Bag
Lots of Pumps & Heels
A Wallet
Perm My Hair
New Belts
Digital Camera
DS Lite
Undergo Lasik
Attend a Shoe Design Course
Lots & Lots of $$$$
**need a job right now**
Try New Stuff to Build Confidence
MESSAGE
THINK POSITIVE...
it's the little little things in my life that allow me to hang on...
no matter how life is...it's just the perception point that varies the outcome view...
my life isn't empty but half-filled...and i'm contented...
