...iNdEeD i SaW hIm AfTeR aLl... i felt blue once again... know that no matter what had happened...it has past... but no matter what...memories do remain... be it good ones...bad ones...or hurting ones... they'll still stay in a small deep corner of my heart... to him...i'm in the wrong... and to me...i'm also at fault... but nothing will ever happen...for it always takes two hands to clap... seriously i'm at fault...who would ever want to let go such long relation??? but problems do surface after so long...and it did... he said to bless me with his well wishes as long i'm happy...but did he??? i do not know what he said to his friends...but i know they aren't nice... he said awful things to me...but i didn't take it to heart... but now he stated this... "thinking of your cries make me laugh, but thinking of your laugh make me cry" tears rolled down my cheeks... tears i've cried in the past for him...over him...all went down to waste... for i am now treated as a fool in his eyes... i never do give up anything without fighting for it... i fought for the lasting in the relation once...twice...many times... but now i felt like a total dumb-bell...stupid me...idiot me... why did i even shed a tear over him??? because i ever once have feelings for him... now i tear...tearing for my supidity and naive-ness... my heart shattered once again because of him... for now i know where i actually stood in his heart... for now i know that i've wasted my 4years+ with someone that i never once weigh anything to him... for now i know that i never once understood you...neither did you... for now i know that my heart would never be placed together again for you...
me myself & i 01:01
EMOTIONAL
Mei Xian
nursing student
...full-time...
lamer
stoner
dreamer
...part-time...
having a break
LOVE LIFE
sleep eat dream
especially sushi
mango pudding cake
ice-cream chocolate
WISH LIST
More Clothes
White "Classy" Tote
Sports Bag
Lots of Pumps & Heels
A Wallet
Perm My Hair
New Belts
Digital Camera
DS Lite
Undergo Lasik
Attend a Shoe Design Course
Lots & Lots of $$$$
**need a job right now**
Try New Stuff to Build Confidence
MESSAGE
THINK POSITIVE...
it's the little little things in my life that allow me to hang on...
no matter how life is...it's just the perception point that varies the outcome view...
my life isn't empty but half-filled...and i'm contented...
