...i HaTe HiM... for the past few days...it has been rather demoralising... i felt that no longer was i cut out for it as a nursing student... call me dumb...call me plain stupid...but i just don't know why... seriously...that feeling was strong till that extend... that very very extend...that i want to drop out... it's coming to the year end...what with the thoughts??? today...at dance...seriously had fun with the isolation thingy... learnt new stuffs...i was super slow in catching steps...as usual... but...peter actually said that i'm doing pairing with treasa... seriously...i was stunned...at e lost of my words... i seriously am not up to it...so how can i do it??? walked home after dance... the sky was in total darkness... and in the dark... the stars are shinning so brightly... every star has it's sliver lining... and every tunnel will lead to an end... suddenly...i felt so light...so relieved... no more burdens of thoughts... don't know what got into me... i just felt like hanging on... it's like...never in my live... not even once... had i felt that i'm worth it... not even once... i fight for something i like... not even once... am i cut out to do anything... why must i refrain myself because of my background... why because of him looking down on me...... i must too look down on myself??? why??? i don't want to...i really don't want to... i told myself...i want to do it... i want to do what i chose to do... i want to achieve something out of my choices... i want to prove to those who are giving me chances...... that i can really do it if i had the chance to... and...i want to prove him wrong...... prove to him that all these years...his wrong...... ...i can...and i must hang in there...no matter what...i must...
me myself & i 00:42
EMOTIONAL
Mei Xian
nursing student
...full-time...
lamer
stoner
dreamer
...part-time...
having a break
LOVE LIFE
sleep eat dream
especially sushi
mango pudding cake
ice-cream chocolate
WISH LIST
More Clothes
White "Classy" Tote
Sports Bag
Lots of Pumps & Heels
A Wallet
Perm My Hair
New Belts
Digital Camera
DS Lite
Undergo Lasik
Attend a Shoe Design Course
Lots & Lots of $$$$
**need a job right now**
Try New Stuff to Build Confidence
MESSAGE
THINK POSITIVE...
it's the little little things in my life that allow me to hang on...
no matter how life is...it's just the perception point that varies the outcome view...
my life isn't empty but half-filled...and i'm contented...
