...LoTsTo SaY...kEePiNg ItShOrT... never blog for such a long time...so much had happened... do not know where i should start from... i too am at the lost of words after series of incidents... began the year with a whole bunch of bad luck... guess lady luck just decided to fly away... and let me face the world with my own creation... attachments sucks...not that i'm not into it... but it's due to my luck which made me feel worst... firstly...it was my footwear on the first day... i left my shoe at my work place... secondly...it was my learning guide... i left it in my ward on a friday... and bothered my pregnant CI in the middle of the night... cause was worried that it'll go missing... lastly...it was the presentation... group effort become only my effort... as they couldn't be bothered at all...
dance...had assessment on tuesday (9th january)... but i did not practice anything for a super duper long time... closed for hoildays...and upon resuming...i started attachment... no time to practice...and was sick... guess it went well......but still...i injured myself... my feet's skin peeled...leaving onli the skin behind... it hurts very badly... could only limb my way home... limb around during attachment... at work...system changed...hated it... what kinda system is it that??? one food server in-charge of two tables one drink server in-charge of four tables idiot lahz...this will only allow people who slack to slack even more... cause if only your drink server nice...then will they help you was made VIP drink server plus usher...and i was free till i help others... was made food server plus usher...and believe me...i was half dead... was made drink sever...and guess what??? i was totally drained... why??? because four tables means i'm helping two food severs... and they gave me two koo koo lahz...argh... two koo koo do not know how to do...still slack... i ran for them food...clear...top up drinks...and get bowls... the word i created in my dictionary now is die-ed... yes pronounce it as die-ed...not died...but die-ed...
tuition...hai... first time ever... i can teach till i cry in front of my kid... it's way over my limit... way over my patience level... way over my tolerance level... i only thought now is to give teaching up... but how could i if this is my only consitent job??? how could i if i could not find a replacement tutor for her??? and how could i if this is the only salary that pays myself??? that pays my expenses??? that pays my fees??? at home... my brother got himself into trouble... police came to our place... do not know what got into him... his old enough...turning 18 this year... knowing himself that he has a crazy father... why couldn't he think for himself??? why couldn't he think for others??? why must he still hang with friends that led him ashtray??? are all this happening as i did something wrong leading to all this??? nothing went smoothly...nothing at all... i do not hope for smooth sailing throughout the year... just hoping that things would be easier to sail through smoothly...
...i thank you for being by my side during this period of time...
me myself & i 17:11
EMOTIONAL
Mei Xian
nursing student
...full-time...
lamer
stoner
dreamer
...part-time...
having a break
LOVE LIFE
sleep eat dream
especially sushi
mango pudding cake
ice-cream chocolate
WISH LIST
More Clothes
White "Classy" Tote
Sports Bag
Lots of Pumps & Heels
A Wallet
Perm My Hair
New Belts
Digital Camera
DS Lite
Undergo Lasik
Attend a Shoe Design Course
Lots & Lots of $$$$
**need a job right now**
Try New Stuff to Build Confidence
MESSAGE
THINK POSITIVE...
it's the little little things in my life that allow me to hang on...
no matter how life is...it's just the perception point that varies the outcome view...
my life isn't empty but half-filled...and i'm contented...
