Saturday, December 09, 2006

...ThReE tHiNgS...

...1st thing...
had fellowship with my officers...it was a great time...for the first time i felt so in place...so right...so comfortable......though it was a rather short time together...and i did do much...i really enjoyed myself to the fullest...thank God for letting us have very special time spent together...

...2nd thing...
this is the final time i doing this...him and his mind set...so childish of him......can anyone tell me how do you piss someone by pretend not to see that you did not see the someone...when that someone DID NOT even see you??? whatever lahz...i walk for the sack of walking...i walk and see the path i'm walking...i do not walk for the sack of spotting anyone in the crowd...and even if i do...i can spot nobody....it's not that i do not want to...it's just that my eyes can never focus...the fact that you don't know and felt so good that you pissed me of...all the more let me know that you do not know me at all......i live my life simple no matter how complicated it is...never would i do something as childish as you...just for the sack of provoking you...it's a waste of my time and effort...an old saying states that if both can't be couple...they still can be friends......so why can't you just keep the good and let go??? what is it that you loving some other girl...annoucing that i'm the FIRST person you hate...yet still so bothered on my presence that you need to provoke me??? hello...for goodness sack...can you think like a 20 year old for even once??? no matter how much a devil you want to make me look in your friends eyes...in order to make you seem more like an angel...and nice......it's no use...for it doesn't affect me...wo wen xing wu kui...for the ninth and FINAL TIME...let me tell you this jimmy chng eng chia...you are CHILDISH...RIDICULOUS...and PATHETIC...for your thinking and actions...all the more proves that you do not how to handle a relationship...do not how to handle emotions...do not know how to handle yourself......please...it's time you really really grow up......

...last thing...

i wasn't over reacting...
this was the feeling that you've given me all along...
so do not ask me to stop comparing...
for your mind...is for you to miss her with...
for your eyes...are for you to see her with...
for your ears...are for you to hear her with...
for your mouth...are for you to speak of her an with her...
for you heart...is for you to keep your feelings of her...
everything and anything...is all about her...
everything and anything...is solely for her...
no matter how i felt...
you're soundly in your lala land...
where am i placed???
where do i stand???
what am i to you???
who am i exactly???
i'm totally lost and puzzled...
*...tears rolling down...*


me myself & i 23:24

EMOTIONAL

Mei Xian
nursing student
...full-time...
lamer
stoner
dreamer
...part-time...
having a break

LOVE LIFE

sleep eat dream
especially sushi
mango pudding cake
ice-cream chocolate

WISH LIST

More Clothes
White "Classy" Tote
Sports Bag
Lots of Pumps & Heels
A Wallet
Perm My Hair
New Belts
Digital Camera
DS Lite
Undergo Lasik
Attend a Shoe Design Course
Lots & Lots of $$$$
**need a job right now**
Try New Stuff to Build Confidence

MESSAGE

THINK POSITIVE...

it's the little little things in my life that allow me to hang on... no matter how life is...it's just the perception point that varies the outcome view... my life isn't empty but half-filled...and i'm contented...

DARLINKS

HISTORY

July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
October 2008
November 2008
April 2009

VOICE OUT