Friday, December 29, 2006
...Wo ZaI yI cI dE lUo LeI...
shi tai ling wo shi qu le zi wo...
shi ni ling wo zhao hui le zi ji...
zhao hui le gan qing...
wo zhi neng shuo...
xie xie ni...
me myself & i 02:35
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
...iT's A hAi HaI dAy FoR mE...hai~~~
HAI...so saddening...my blog now very lag...
can anyone fix it for me???
HAI...double the saddening...cause i just found
out if you can hear the ding ding ding...means
you can't hear the song for the photos liao le...
HAI...triple the saddening...my flicky stole
my blog song...my ding ding ding...
argh...don't like html le lahz...bleahz...tao yan lahz... =x
me myself & i 15:15
...tImEs Of EmOtIoNs OvEr RuNnInG aGaIn...
why must people be so realistic??? must everything be that way??? why must one lose something...before knowing how to cherish??? this world does not consist of only one person...it consist of many many other people...those people...are friends...friends that make you day...make you life...friends...multiply joy...divide sorrows...but why everyone must be so self-centered??? selfish??? only having eyes for themselves??? nobody is ever contented with what they already have...always asking for more more more...who had ever stop...and look around...look at the tiny little things others had done for you...and say a thank you??? all things can actually go smoothly...with no fights...no arguements...but why nothing can ever go smoothly??? it's because of the word called pride......everyone holds on to their pride so tightly...because of their own pride...they are willing to let go of a friendship...to lose their love one......but did it ever occur to you that it was fate that brought people together??? and that fate do not just come by any tom dick or henry??? when can anyone just wake up from your own fantasy that you too have to spare a thought for others...that they fill your life with colours...so stop treating people around you transparent...for they did not consume glass...notice them not only when you are in need...but notice them all the time......thank them for very little thing they had done...apologise for putting pride before the relationship......everything can be solved...it's only a matter of whether you wanting to talk over the matter with the fellow...
remember...the first mistake is by having the thought that you live for the sack of yourself and not for the sack of others...so why should you bother about how they feel about you......the second mistake is knowing of yourself having the first mistake and not doing anything to change it......and lastly...is not changing your mistake...yet letting it occur time and again......in that case...you are plain stupid to let pride stand in the way...
so HEY PEOPLE...it's time to wake up...wake up to realise everyone by you...be it your family...friends...or loved one......they are parts and parcels of your life......they contribute to the multiply colours you enjoy in life......put aside pride for it will cost you nothing to lose...hold on to it tightly and it may cost you to lose a fated relationship......to gain or to lose...it's all a matter of choices......do the right thing...do things right......which is right...which is wrong...you determine...you choose...
me myself & i 03:32
Monday, December 25, 2006
...MeRrY cHrIsTmAs...
...you are my summer breeze...
...my winter sun...
...my spring time song...
...my autumn touch of gold...
me myself & i 17:40
Friday, December 22, 2006
...yEaH...fInAlLy...yeshi...i've finally changed my blog skin successfully...and yupz...i got rid of the song that feli was so irritated by...hahazzz...so now it's some lullaby...ding ding ding song...it is rather soothing...hope feli don't fall asleep...really like that last music though...it fitting in well when i was blogging that time...but this suitted...because i needed patience...it took me hours for this blog skin...and getting it right...patience...is the key......slow and steady wins the race...hahazzz...okay...was trying to be lame...yupz......no choice ar...i am an idiot in everything i do ar...road idiot...technology idiot...etc...etc...of course it'll cost me hour to do this up...what's more is the scroll scroll...argh...was really irritated by it at first...trouble feli as usual...hahazzz...but i was too stubborn to give up lahz...so i continued trying and trying and trying...till now...FINALLY...i did it...muahaha hahazzz...very satisfied...the man zhu gan is wonderful de losz...lalalalala~~~really love this blog skin very much...cause it's all STARS...i like......but it's kinda lag lahz...so like sorry...wait patiently ba... =xooo...feli...don't worry...the music is only the "intro" page...you won't get to here the singin......after you click somethingy...anythingy...so...ya...enjoy the ding ding ding song ba...hehe...bleahz...
me myself & i 03:18
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
...mEnToR cAmP 2006...starting of the camp...18th december...
first question...why in the world would they want to start of the camp at 5pm??? really do not know why......played some small small games...divided into groups...hai...so saddening lahz...7 of us...2 together...another 4 also together...hai...it's me myself and i okay...in one group...ALONE...argh...no fair...never mind...wild fire rocks...na ni na ni poo poo...bleahz...
the kick of point...19th december...
woke up at 6:30am...bathe in the morning without heater and it's raining lahz...brrrr...freezing cold lahz......breakfast...forming of cheers...and of to games...woo...games...a killer man......team work team work...contributions contributions...hai...don't like her...meano...wo ren...ren ren ren...and she still happily thinks that she's in the right when she make a mistake and scolded me lahz...ahhhh...how can she??? how thick can her skin be??? REN okay...i got REN...ignore her......why should i be bothered by her??? she still can happily grade someone very low...when that someone is much more positive...have the right attitude...spontaneous...and contributes ideas lahz......argh...thick skin.........kk...don't want to talk about her...talk about others...hmmm...made new friends...i mean...duh~~...rather amazed...because...the malays look like they are chinese...and the chinese look like malay...i was so so so fasinated lahz......lalala... =p ...oya...and i learnt how to play "da xiao" (big small) ...erm...the dice shake thingy...ya...hahazzz...with imaginary money...so like each of us started of with $100...and i ended up with $500 i guess...rather fun lahz...get rather high near the ending sia...wha haha......NO NO NO...it's not gambling...we were just kiling time...killing boredom...not gamble okay...not at all...bleahz... =x ...
breaking of camp...20th december...
end time for camp depends on our performance..."trail blazer x3"...rather interesting game...which in the end have 9 casualties...as a form of our punishment ba...criteria for casualties must be around 168cm - 170cm tall and above...with weight of at least 50kg...yupz...was one of the casualty...argh...52kg...i must have tired you guys...thanks so much...sorry about the weight...loved the fun...but not th e part being molested by ting yu lahz...hai...hahazzz......hmmm...eventually ended at around 2pm...eat...pack...photo taking...2+ already......was really tired and worn out...
overall experience...
was really a rather fun camp...with nice people......
first and for most......true enough...it was a mentorship camp...to train leaders......but still no matter how much one is willing to trust others...someone will definitely bound to break the trust......really disappointing...though it's just 3days staying together why can't we have the most basic trust by not stealing??? a very misfortunate thing to happen to him...bu why can't they understand??? i mean...if really it so happen that you were the one who lost your thing...you will too hope that the lecturer at least make that effort to search for you what...why are they so self centered??? can't they spare a thought for others??? please lahz...he lost his phone...though he don't show it...but i'm sure he feels terrible......yet they couldn't understand...still blamed him for all the searching that's going on??! goodness...selfish bunch of people lahz......
secondly......something i believe...if you know...contribute...if not it doesn't really matter......but why some know...yet are unwilling to help...still want to be stubborn...in the wrong......still have to cheek to scold "siao zha bo" right into my face??? i mean...ya...i'm no longer bothered by her......like someone said...she's not fit to be one......but seriously...nobody is perfect...if you make a mistake...just admit it...learn from it...and move on......what's the point on insisting that you are right when you're not??? how great will that make you??? maybe all that you gain is additional layers of skin......
thirdly......great to have made new friends...especially a great thanks to rick...he was the one who did not make me felt out of place in the group......cause i lonely sole...hahazzz...he and henry really make my day in camp...especially times of "da xiao"...keke...thankful for them...and grateful for the lil lil suprise...*pai se*......
lastly......happy...disappointed...angry...sad...times in camp...still i really want to thank every single person in camp...with out anyone...i will not be able to learn...will not be able to grow...will not be able to accept......
thanks for all the lifting and carrying...
thanks for all the pain...
thanks for all the touch...
thanks for all the joy and laughter...
thanks for all the encouragement...
thanks for all the love...care and concern...
THANKS A LOT PEOPLE...
I LOVE YOU... *muckzzz*
me myself & i 18:57
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
...SeNdInG wEi LiAnG iNtO cAmP...woke up super early for the first time...WITHOUT lazing in the bed...miricle sia...hahazzz...bathed and guess what???first surprise of the day...which gave me a great shock...the family decided to send him too...out of a sudden...give me this kind of news...first thought in my mind "can i not go"...his family lai...i never see before lai...and not one only losz...is FIVE lahz...hai...first question i asked "do you want me to go"...so eventually...i still went...tagged along...know my pattern de lahz...in front of parents angelic...so keep quiet losz...went for breakfast together...guess what again???first time ever...i ate so fast...hai...don't know good or bad also...suprise number two...his uncle offered to send me home after that...oh my gosh...was bad...bad bad bad...hai...reached the camp site...surprise number three...the family stayed for the briefing and every thing...and i'm ALONE with them...ALONE!!!argh...you know what??? it was stupid of me...i keep quiet...no topic...no topic...they ask what i answer...it was not weird...it was VERY WEIRD!!!never mind...more to come...the officer eventually gave his speech...grandmother story as usual...and guess what???i fell asleep as usual...gosh...and you know what's the best part???his mother woke me up lahz!!!ahhhh~~~...damn pai seh losz...stupid grandmother speech finished...went out and have a very short time to chat with him...this one...can't discribe le lahz...too weird...too funny...hai...then they say they talk finish...leave the time for us...goodness lahz...never mind...still sit there see...hai...only got two words say...totally embarrassed...they sent me home...the journey killed me...i got bad habit since young...to sleep in transport...all types and all kinds of transport...yupz...i kept my eyes open...trying so hard to keep them opened...but i really don't understand what they talking...dialect mahz...and yes...i finally fall asleep...hai...woke up at upper thomson area...which i do not know how to describe how i felt...hai...really is embarrassed one losz...hai...they sent all the way to my block's carpark lahz...oh gosh...the whole morning...my goodness...i'm just so embarrased and too embarrassed...no words can describe how i fell right now...feel like digging a hole and burying my head in...it's just so saddening lahz...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~...lao tian ar...ni shi bu shi zai zhen wo???
me myself & i 12:33
Sunday, December 10, 2006
...LaSt SuNdAy ToGeThEr...
had a little arguement with myself last night...i guess...
why with myself??? not because i'm crazy lahz...
is cause i've said so much...yet he fell asleep...
which kinda make me hu xi luan xiang...
anyway...it was silly...real silly...
=p ...sorry losz...can't blame me also de ar...
how can anyone be serious...yet fall alseep de???
moreover the topic was on her...
which i don't like her in the very first place...
yet you can sleep...it's so not logical......
anyway...he did clear things out with me...
which made me some how...more embarrassed...
but still...thanks a lot...
was really touched...and embarrassed...
time really passed very quickly...
and the day is over...
will really miss him...
me myself & i 23:42
Saturday, December 09, 2006
...ThReE tHiNgS......1st thing...
had fellowship with my officers...it was a great time...for the first time i felt so in place...so right...so comfortable......though it was a rather short time together...and i did do much...i really enjoyed myself to the fullest...thank God for letting us have very special time spent together...
...2nd thing...
this is the final time i doing this...him and his mind set...so childish of him......can anyone tell me how do you piss someone by pretend not to see that you did not see the someone...when that someone DID NOT even see you??? whatever lahz...i walk for the sack of walking...i walk and see the path i'm walking...i do not walk for the sack of spotting anyone in the crowd...and even if i do...i can spot nobody....it's not that i do not want to...it's just that my eyes can never focus...the fact that you don't know and felt so good that you pissed me of...all the more let me know that you do not know me at all......i live my life simple no matter how complicated it is...never would i do something as childish as you...just for the sack of provoking you...it's a waste of my time and effort...an old saying states that if both can't be couple...they still can be friends......so why can't you just keep the good and let go??? what is it that you loving some other girl...annoucing that i'm the FIRST person you hate...yet still so bothered on my presence that you need to provoke me??? hello...for goodness sack...can you think like a 20 year old for even once??? no matter how much a devil you want to make me look in your friends eyes...in order to make you seem more like an angel...and nice......it's no use...for it doesn't affect me...wo wen xing wu kui...for the ninth and FINAL TIME...let me tell you this jimmy chng eng chia...you are CHILDISH...RIDICULOUS...and PATHETIC...for your thinking and actions...all the more proves that you do not how to handle a relationship...do not how to handle emotions...do not know how to handle yourself......please...it's time you really really grow up......
...last thing...i wasn't over reacting...this was the feeling that you've given me all along...
so do not ask me to stop comparing...
for your mind...is for you to miss her with...
for your eyes...are for you to see her with...
for your ears...are for you to hear her with...
for your mouth...are for you to speak of her an with her...
for you heart...is for you to keep your feelings of her...
everything and anything...is all about her...
everything and anything...is solely for her...
no matter how i felt...
you're soundly in your lala land...
where am i placed???
where do i stand???
what am i to you???
who am i exactly???
i'm totally lost and puzzled...
*...tears rolling down...*
me myself & i 23:24
Thursday, December 07, 2006
...FiNaLlY tHe BuSy WeEk Is OvEr...
finally...it's over...ICA...well done i guess...at least i feel that way...really want to thank everyone for the effort...especially to natelie...my ever dearest LEADER...kk...member...member......later she angry then next project i die liao le...hahahazzz...but really lahz...thanks natelie!!! thanks for staying up late...way pass your bed time for the project...thank you so so much!!! *muckzzz*
me myself & i 23:53
Sunday, December 03, 2006
...EvErYtHiNg Is FaTeD...
today is the 2nd last sunday i'm going to spend with him...
we went to orchard at noon...ate at food republic...sat with a family as we were sharing tables...who brought along two kids...but as usual i'm only attracted to one...because he sat nearer to me...and he was very...very...very adorable!!! yupz...so when we were eating...we were playing with him as well...then he started to push his sauces over to me lahz...his just so cute!!! okay...never mind...later he exchange tissue paper with me losz...he took our tissue...which is the very small pack one...with dinosaur printing......and guess what he give in return??? tissue packet...smaller version of the tissue box...with winne the pooh printing...hahazzz...then he show his parents...then say he exchange with us...hehe...cute right???
slowly finishing up my drink but left because we gave our sits to others...so went to catch a movie...hmmm...the movie was......err......ehhhh...no comments...speechless... =x ...bleahz...so walk around...don't know how we walk also when we didn't shop...but ya...time just pass very quickly...
headed down to plaza singapura...had our dinner there...pizza hut...saw a lot of funny people there...who make people's job difficult...it's just so mean of them lahz...pig man...dislike people like them......kk...story starts again here...finish eating...so sat there slowly finishing up my drink again...then someone go and bang my chair lahz...turned around and wanted to see is which fellow so rude don't know how to saw sorry......and guess who i saw??? it was that little boy that we saw at food republic lahz...he came over on purpose to bang my chair...and he ran back to his table...hahazzz...so we met again with the family...very amazed...twice a day...and both times we were having meals......guess it's all fated ba...so coincidental lahz...hehe...wei liang cheated him over by offering sweet...it's so funny lahz...kids...easily coaxed...keke...ya...then the father came over and ask if we mind taking a picture with his son??? of course not lahz...his son so so so very cute lahz...ahhhh...
so like...he'll be sending it to wei liang...hopefully he remembers to...and soon enough...then i'll be able to upload it here and show you guys how cute he look like......hai...i like... =)
fate...something that i believe in strongly......fate brings people together...for letting me know you...for letting me have new encounters and new friends each day...for letting me have such wonderful and great friends......without it...i wouldn't be who i am today...all i have to say is...thanks for being there when i needed support and encouragement the most...i love you guys!!! *muckzzz*
me myself & i 23:52
