things are getting more and more ridiculous each time... first it was him sharing everything with his friends...letting his hearts out which i totally can understand... secondly...it was his friend who came intruding into my life...confronting me for no good reason...when i do not even know who the hell she is...nor does she know who the hell i am...hello...for goodness sack...what rights does she have??? confronting me??? what was she to be??? relationship consist of two...anything it's just between us...never mind...maybe it's a very good and concern friend...i understand... thirdly...he said that never did i blog about our happenings like i am blogging now...that he was so disappointed in me...never mind...i understand...because i seriously never did... fourthly...it was him saying that no matter what he will still treat me as a friend...reading my blog every once in a while...sending me emails of concern...saying things sounding that he is giving me his blessing in this new relationship...saying that he is treating me well that i should learn to cherish...okay...i can see where his coming from... now...guess what nonsense i recieve from him??? he was gladly announcing in his blog to the whole world that i am his FIRST ever hated person......never mind...still have part two......guess what??? he too announced that he had thrown away every single thing i have given to him...tore all the pictures we took...that all of it wasn't worth keeping...that how stupid he was to continuously thinking about our past......i told him to throw them away...it was him who was reluctant to do so...saying that he is thinking about our past but yet developing feeling for someone else... look...who is the stupid one here??? me or you??? wow...indeed am i honoured to be the FIRST person he hate......reading his blog...doesn't upset me...it just make me want to laugh...to laugh at him......time and again it was him who have made empty promises...hurting me...breaking my heart......the times i cried...the amount of tears flowed...the ache i suffer...he doesn't know......how many more times do i have to forgive him till he learn to cherish the chances he have had??? cherishing...is a word that he should not be saying...because he never did...and he do not know how to...because he only have himself in his eyes that he see nothing that others have done for him......ni mei you zhi ge qu ai...ying wei ni bu dong shen me jiao ai...it's time you grow up...set eyes for others...and not only yourself...
me myself & i 01:29
EMOTIONAL
Mei Xian
nursing student
...full-time...
lamer
stoner
dreamer
...part-time...
having a break
LOVE LIFE
sleep eat dream
especially sushi
mango pudding cake
ice-cream chocolate
WISH LIST
More Clothes
White "Classy" Tote
Sports Bag
Lots of Pumps & Heels
A Wallet
Perm My Hair
New Belts
Digital Camera
DS Lite
Undergo Lasik
Attend a Shoe Design Course
Lots & Lots of $$$$
**need a job right now**
Try New Stuff to Build Confidence
MESSAGE
THINK POSITIVE...
it's the little little things in my life that allow me to hang on...
no matter how life is...it's just the perception point that varies the outcome view...
my life isn't empty but half-filled...and i'm contented...