.....LoSt In ThE wOrLd Of BlAnKnEsS... all i can say now at this very point of the is nothing... i'm lost...my mind is totally blank... so depressed...so saddening... am i stressed out??? i also do not know... but is there anything for me be stress about??? i also do not know anything... really do not know... food... something to balance myself... something to balance my emotions... something i use to vent my emotions on... something to control my emotions from overwhelming me... been eating to my fill since yesterday... it was the first ICA presentation... but sad to say...did fairly...very fairly... content was there but insufficient... relevence and application not even near her expectation... creativity a little... upon hearing all that... my heart sunk... really was so depressed... maybe it was because i did not do enough... i hate projects...i hate group work... hate hate hate them...argh... today...theory test... was to busy with everything... that i didn't even know what i was busy with... didn't manage to study for i was too tired... didn't manage to wake up this morning though he called a million times... don't have any idea why i'm so tired... but i'm just totally out of energy... i'm really now a living dead... drifting around... been eat non-stop since before the test... rice...lollipops...cookies...fruits... noodles...crackers...chocolates... ice-creams...jelly beans...plums... rice...lollipops...ice-cream... why am i eating so much i also don't know... it's just that i cannot and do not know how to balance my emotions... why am i not stopping myself from continuous eating??? it's just i couldn't help it...and just continue eating... now...i just feel like bursting into tears and go to lala land... saddening...depressed...confused...yet...i don't know why... please guide me out of this complicated feeling of mine... for no matter how hard i try to put up a strong front... i can no longer be as tough as i use to be... i need encouragement... i need support... i need you...
me myself & i 23:30
EMOTIONAL
Mei Xian
nursing student
...full-time...
lamer
stoner
dreamer
...part-time...
having a break
LOVE LIFE
sleep eat dream
especially sushi
mango pudding cake
ice-cream chocolate
WISH LIST
More Clothes
White "Classy" Tote
Sports Bag
Lots of Pumps & Heels
A Wallet
Perm My Hair
New Belts
Digital Camera
DS Lite
Undergo Lasik
Attend a Shoe Design Course
Lots & Lots of $$$$
**need a job right now**
Try New Stuff to Build Confidence
MESSAGE
THINK POSITIVE...
it's the little little things in my life that allow me to hang on...
no matter how life is...it's just the perception point that varies the outcome view...
my life isn't empty but half-filled...and i'm contented...
