...awaken from my dreams... was sick yesterday...suddenly everything became so clear to me... whenever i am down...sick...it was him that came into my mind... maybe it's because 4yrs 40days... you think it was easy to let go??? to tell the truth... saying was easy...doing is hard... saying was still easy...to let go...it was even harder...
i know how dumb i can be... how unfair it was... but still...nothing was clear...till now... do not know why i would fall sick... but guess it was all fated... because whenever i'm sick... it was times i think a lot... and all my emotions just keep filling in... thought and emotions was sorted out finally... speaking from the bottom of my heart... i can't let go...couldn't let go...and don't know how to let go...
but now...i can... truely...whoeheartedly...and totally... i can now really say...it's really over...
everything shattered the day i knew the truth... a promise that i hold on to so tightly... yet treated lightly by you... you'll never know how i had felt...and you'll never will...
promises were made...not meant to be broken... but to be marked word by word... if not what is the point in the first place??? yi ge nuo yan dui ni lai shou...zhi bu guo ru chi... ke dui wo lai shou ke shi yi yi zhong da...
everything ended... the day i knew the promise was broken... was the day my heart died... was the day my feelings for you died totally... and the day is today...
the times i kept myself in the world of my own... the ups and downs i've gone through... the tears i've shed... you do not know... you weren't there... in your eyes... it's forever you... and what you have done... but nothing is possible to happen... for it takes two hands to clap... it was never one sided... it's just that you noticed... for your eyes were solely for her and her alone... everything fades... my pain... my hurt... my love... my hatred... my sorrow... my dreams... my happiness...
towards you... nothing last anymore... since the day i knew the promise was broken... my heart shattered...my heart died... nothing will last no more...when i knew you love her...
loving you no more...my heart sunk... when everything was broken to me... wo de xing zai ye wu fa rong na ni le... dui ni...wo yi jing che di de shi wang... che di de shi xing le...
me myself & i 02:45
EMOTIONAL
Mei Xian
nursing student
...full-time...
lamer
stoner
dreamer
...part-time...
having a break
LOVE LIFE
sleep eat dream
especially sushi
mango pudding cake
ice-cream chocolate
WISH LIST
More Clothes
White "Classy" Tote
Sports Bag
Lots of Pumps & Heels
A Wallet
Perm My Hair
New Belts
Digital Camera
DS Lite
Undergo Lasik
Attend a Shoe Design Course
Lots & Lots of $$$$
**need a job right now**
Try New Stuff to Build Confidence
MESSAGE
THINK POSITIVE...
it's the little little things in my life that allow me to hang on...
no matter how life is...it's just the perception point that varies the outcome view...
my life isn't empty but half-filled...and i'm contented...
