Thursday, August 17, 2006

hai...frankly...i can't hold on 2 tis tot any longer liao le!!! i'm a frank person...a super duper frank person...u should noe...n i can no longer nt voice out...

hai...look...u're nice...u're friendly...u're totful...i noe all ppl hab emotions...coz i understand it totally...but hey...when we're down u sae u would do everythingy 2 c e smilez on our faces...but r u bein selfish here??!

u're unhappie...every single 1 of us r makin e effort 2 cheer u up...console u...encourage u...but u??! it's lyk givin us a tight slap ritez into our faces once we show our concern...iz tis e kinda reward n treatment u're givin ritez???

u sae u're tired...u sae u're down...u sae u no longer c e meanin in life...aren't we all there 4 u??? though we're nt there at e same time...but no matter how slow we r...dun we still crawl all e way there??! u sae u alwayz plses us...true...wo bu fou ren...in fact...i raise both hands n legs in agreement...but...dun we???

sayin e most recent...even u dun feel comfortable see them so close n intimate...they too qian jiu u...do u hab any idea how he feels??? coz of u...she ignores him when wid u...n he doesn't even noe wat's goin on...he felt totally miserable......y??? y all tis happen??? coz she wanna pls u......tt sum1 hu hab feelin 4 u...oso dun mind hurtin himself 2 pls u...spendin his time 2 cheer u up...tok 2 u......i'm tired n so iz benben...i...i spend e least time wid u...can understand how u feel all e time...though i nv go through wat u did...but i went through worst......but nw...truely...i've given up...n i'm gonna wash moi hands of carin 4 u...carin 4 u s much s b4...u're still a fren...a verie gd fren of mine...but i reallie c no pt...i've said so much in e past...n juz a few hrs ago...n i'm nt gonna sae tis much or more in e future anymore...............

u noe y??? it's nt tt i wanna gib up on u...iz u urself gib up on ur ownself 1st...if u gib up on ur own...no wan can eva help u...but urself...i've said tis more dan a million times...n u've heard it a million times...but no matter how much i've comfort...there's no use...if u dun listen...dun help urself...NOBODY CAN!!! NOBODY!!!

i'm freakin fed up wid e kinda attitude u're showin...u're down...every1 iz concern...yet u juz put on a fake smile 2 hong all of us...r we all fools??? fools 2 b laughed at??? i dunno...i reallie dunno...

but 4 e last time...i'm sayin tis......so if u read tis...n hab read so far...u're hearin tis...no...seein tis e LAST time...i repeat......e LAST TIME............if u dun lyk it...dan jolly well close tis window...coz i'm sick n tired repeatin it moiself.........

gal...life iz nv smooth sailin...life hab it's ups n it's down...they're nt there 4 fun...but 2 mould u 2 bcum a stronger n beta person......we r all typical human beings...we alwayz view things frm e negative pt......but how many of us actually turn e prob around n look frm another pt of veiw...where it too hab it's own plus points??? juz lyk e sky...beautiful in e dae...wid e sun shinin brightly...wid e birds flyin freely so so high...but cums e nitez...e sky iz still pretty...though it's dark...but e moon n stars still light up e entire sky 4 us............everytime a door closes...u'll nv b lost 4eva...coz another door will open 4 u...it juz takes time 4 u 2 find e widely open door which iz waitin 4 u ALWAYZ...juz lyk us alwayz free 2 lend a listenin ear n shoulder 4 u 2 cry on.........u alwayz wanna make ppl's dae...but when will u let others make urs??? i been through tt...n u'll juz push ur frenz away frm u slowly...verie slowly......no1 was there 2 tell mi...but i no 1 u 2 walk moi path!!! SO WAKE UP!!! if she's nt makin u're dae...if she's alwayz sulkin...if she'd still rmb of e past...DO UR STUFF N MAKE UR MUM'S DAE!!! if u've tried n u've failed 2 make her dae......it juz means tt u're nt tryin hard enuff...impressions can't b changed over nitez...impressions can't b plsed n change...impressions means takin actions 2 prove ur own worth...provin tt u've reallie change...n nt simply by using words...coz words r worthless...if nt y won't u listen...ritez??? n...STOP bottlin everything up n treat every1 wid e REAL emotions...if nt it'll onli bring u 2 no gd end......again...take it frm sum1 hu noes...DUN eva look down on urself...coz u'll nv noe wat u can actually achieve...juz trust urself u can...n believe tt u can...widout any doubt......u failed...u fell...nvm...wipe off those tears...stand up again...n try try try again...n u'll definitly will mit tt goal in ur life...create ur future...dun let ur pass n present control u......~~there can b miracles when U BELIEVE~~

hai....................................................................there...i've said moi piece.........lucky i blow at hm...n onli can sae here...n nt in front of u...if nt......u'll get a shock out of ur life......s u'll c a verie...hmmm....i should sae wierd change n swing of MIXED emotions ba...n reallie mixed ones.........frm angrie...2 sad...2 confused...2 happie...2 tierd......hai...etc...nth u can think of......n finally break down n cry...............here......nt bad lahz......u dunno...onli i noe...........whether u lyk it or nt...i'd alreadie voiced out liao le...sorrie...sorrie if i was hash wid moi words...or rather...too hash...but they were all frm moi bottom of moi heart......lyk i said up there...words r wothless......u should noe wats real...n wats nt.........but no matter wat...our frenship iz real...n ur n alwayz will b a gd sister...muckzzz...luv u alwayz...

PS: exam tml le...put aside all tots n feelins...get hold of urself n reallie reallie concentrate on tis period...tis verie verie impt period...2 score great marks...2 make urself proud...n imptly...make ur mum happie...reallie happie......

*~*~*~xianz signin off after a battle wid her own mixed mixed n so so mixed emotions...hai...wat was i thinkin...i reallie dunno~*~*~*

me myself & i 00:32

EMOTIONAL

Mei Xian
nursing student
...full-time...
lamer
stoner
dreamer
...part-time...
having a break

LOVE LIFE

sleep eat dream
especially sushi
mango pudding cake
ice-cream chocolate

WISH LIST

More Clothes
White "Classy" Tote
Sports Bag
Lots of Pumps & Heels
A Wallet
Perm My Hair
New Belts
Digital Camera
DS Lite
Undergo Lasik
Attend a Shoe Design Course
Lots & Lots of $$$$
**need a job right now**
Try New Stuff to Build Confidence

MESSAGE

THINK POSITIVE...

it's the little little things in my life that allow me to hang on... no matter how life is...it's just the perception point that varies the outcome view... my life isn't empty but half-filled...and i'm contented...

DARLINKS

HISTORY

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