Friday, August 04, 2006
hai...4 e 1st time...i scolded moi sis...dunno m i suppose 2 feel relief...glad or upset n wid full of guilt......since young i'm so envious of her...she has everythingy...luv...care...concern...n everythingy she name it she gets it......yayaya...u may think tt i m jealous...but reallie i'm nt a single bit at all jealous...in fact...i kinda dislyk her...erm...in e sense tt...she has everything which o dun at all...yet...she wasn't e least greatful!!! bcoz moi dad dotes on her so so verie much...she turned out 2 b such a spoilt brat...spendthrift n rude...yayaya...i noe i noe...wat ritez do i hab 2 sae her...n where do i stand 2 judge her......but branded stuff everywhere...even when she doesn't hab e $$$...n calls moi parents idiot!!! tt reallie angered mi...4 those hu noe mi long enuff...u would noe tt i dun lyk hm...coz it's shattered...but still...it's moi hm...though it didn't gib mi luv nor care...it's still moi hm...sobsob...but she??! she had everything in e world...yet couldn't b e least greatful nor thankful......n i could no longer stand it 2dae!!! there again she threw her temper...expecting things 2 go e way it would lyk alwayz...but dan...i reallie find she went overbroad...she wanna stop her course after a yr half...n wanna take private instead......pls 4goodness sake...hab e $$$ yet u no wanna studie finish b4 gettin ur bachelor degree...she wanna skip...dan skippin will cost alot alot alot more $$$...n e reason iz juz coz she no lyk e sch...so since can skip ight s well skip...i mean wat kinda stupid attitude iz tis??! hey...we're no rich ppl!!! n i'm strugglin so damn hard 2 pay 4 moi sch fee...n she??! nvm...bcoz it cost so much...moi parents can't afford it...so moi mom went around askin...n realise if she completes her diploma nt onli will she save e $$$ spent...she'll oso save e time...n guess wat??? she called n screamed at moi mom "wo hen si ni men le"...damn was i angrie!!! she dun even noe wat moi mom hab gone through 4 her...n pushin all e fault 2 moi mom when it's moi dad's!!! it was moi dad hu's being unreasonable...took it out on mi n moi mom...n nt moi sis when it's her prob!!! yet she??? she doesn't noe at all...n asked "did e 2 idiots tok abt mi"...i could no longer control e anger within...how could she call our parents idiot??!ceverything tt i longed 2 sae...all at once...blowed out...i yelled at her...said tt she was a spoilt brat...rude...bcoz of all tt she had hab she doesn't noe how 2 treasure...she doesn't noe wat we gone through bcoz of her...all she cares abt it herself n her feelins n how gd she looks in front of her frenz...tt she's nth but a selfish bitch...when eva she's nt pleased all she does was fine i'll leave hm since i can't hab it moi way...do u even hab a consious...did u eva bothered abt wat we feel wat we think??! since u think so highly of urself them fine!!! so b it!!! i dun care anymore!!! hai...i've said moi peace...i'm suppose 2 feel relief...feed gd...but reallie...i dun...i still feel so angrie...sobsob...she hab moi dad 2 support her studies...yet...she doesn't treasure it......she apologized 2 moi mom...i'm nt touched...but i'm relief...4 e 1st time...she apologized 2 moi mom...at least nw i noe she has a conscious......but nw...i reallie feel so bad...so verie bad...coz no matter wat...i should nt hab yelled at her...coz she older dan mi...*guilt over runs mi*EMOTIONAL
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