Sunday, August 06, 2006

at tis verie pt...ritez at tis moment...i feel so lost...feel so disappointed...after readin ur blog...i dunno wat m i suppose 2 feel anymore...our gap r driftin further n further away...n i no longer noe hu r u s clear s last time......i was pissed of nt bcoz i had nth beta 2 do...it was bcoz tt u actually put ur heart in2 wantin spend time 2 studie...yet u wasn't studyin...we wasted time here n there...so by e them u sat down 2 reallie studie u left 3hrs...yet u did nt put ur whole heart in2 studyin durin e 3hrs...i'm nt sayin tt u can't hab fun...but dan i'm there juz 2 accompany oso spent time searchin 4 project stuffs......u noe i'm pissed but do u noe y??? u juz declare tt i'm pissed n dan end of storie...i wasn't e least bit angrie...but u declared tt i m......yet u still put on a smile n joke around wid mi...m i a clown being fooled by u??? i moiself hab alot of unsettled stuff...which i nv tell u...coz i no wanna make u worrie...make u upset wid mi...but u r causin mi 2 b more upset...coz i reallie m confused...i no longer noe hu r...coz nw...u put on an act in front of mi......came by 1 phrase "life iz abt mind n matter...i dun mind n u dun matter"...mayb i should stop mindin...anyway u dun matter......n even if u do...i'll qns iz tt e real u...i hate moiself...it's moi fault...moi fault...*hu should b e 1 upset??? i utterly confused...so depressed...i dunno...sobsob*


me myself & i 01:19

EMOTIONAL

Mei Xian
nursing student
...full-time...
lamer
stoner
dreamer
...part-time...
having a break

LOVE LIFE

sleep eat dream
especially sushi
mango pudding cake
ice-cream chocolate

WISH LIST

More Clothes
White "Classy" Tote
Sports Bag
Lots of Pumps & Heels
A Wallet
Perm My Hair
New Belts
Digital Camera
DS Lite
Undergo Lasik
Attend a Shoe Design Course
Lots & Lots of $$$$
**need a job right now**
Try New Stuff to Build Confidence

MESSAGE

THINK POSITIVE...

it's the little little things in my life that allow me to hang on... no matter how life is...it's just the perception point that varies the outcome view... my life isn't empty but half-filled...and i'm contented...

DARLINKS

HISTORY

July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
October 2008
November 2008
April 2009

VOICE OUT