Monday, July 24, 2006

y would things turn out tis way??? it was actuallie a verie small matter...yet ended up tis way...i nv wan thinks 2 turn out lyk tis...do u reallie think tt there iz onli her tryin so hard 2 maintain e frenship tt u built??? it takes 2 hands 2 clap...being frenz iz a kinda fate...iz nt by sae okay b 2gether every1 will b 2gether...we hab 2 b wk wid each other 2 b frenz......maintain iz oso e same...it iz nt onli her tt iz upset...every1 iz...b it wat stand they cumin frm...we're still concern...if we're nt...we wun bother abt yesterdae...if i'm nt...i wun make e effort 2 rush down after moi ug event wid all moi u n tierdness......tokin out iz so much easier...but when every1 iz down or hab prob...i'll alwayz rush down in e 1st min 2 lend moi shoulder...but when i need a listenin ear...every1 juz can't seem 2 tell though it's obvious...does it reallie matter if i'm around...nv once did ppl reallie c mi when i'm down...i can b seen by all of u when i'm smilin...but when i'm cryin...all of u were by moi side...but weren't there 4 mi...but 4 sum1 else...frankly...it doesn't bother mi...coz since young i nv recieved any...it doesn't if i recieve it nw or nt......u sae tt i'm bein selfish 2 nt care abt her feelins...but u dunno how i felt at tt moment...i may seem strong 2 every1...n i too in fact wanna b...but juz bcoz u din c mi cry...doesn't meant tt i'm strong......mayb u think tt wat u sae or ask did nth 2 mi...but it did...n alot......4 moi verie close frenz...they noe tt i onli put others at heart n nt moiself...but u juz labelled mi s self-centered...i did nt cum 2 tt decision on impulsive...but i went through alot of thinkin...b4 settin moi mind up...i considered every1's feelin...tots...n interest...i strongly felt tt every1 needed him more dan mi...i will alwayz luv u all n care 4 u all lyk alwayz...b there when u all need mi still...juz tt i leave e gp...it'll benefit every1... =") ...i cried till eyes swollen dan cum 2 tis decision...sam can respect moi decision n nt force mi in2 sumthingy which i reallie no wish 2...our frenship will alwayz remain...let us nw let bygone b bygone k??? n still maintain our happie frenship...sob...k??? *lost in direction*


me myself & i 10:55

EMOTIONAL

Mei Xian
nursing student
...full-time...
lamer
stoner
dreamer
...part-time...
having a break

LOVE LIFE

sleep eat dream
especially sushi
mango pudding cake
ice-cream chocolate

WISH LIST

More Clothes
White "Classy" Tote
Sports Bag
Lots of Pumps & Heels
A Wallet
Perm My Hair
New Belts
Digital Camera
DS Lite
Undergo Lasik
Attend a Shoe Design Course
Lots & Lots of $$$$
**need a job right now**
Try New Stuff to Build Confidence

MESSAGE

THINK POSITIVE...

it's the little little things in my life that allow me to hang on... no matter how life is...it's just the perception point that varies the outcome view... my life isn't empty but half-filled...and i'm contented...

DARLINKS

HISTORY

July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
October 2008
November 2008
April 2009

VOICE OUT