...life...hen fu zha......heart...brokened......emotions...swingin...... mind...yi pian kong bai......walkin out of tis dark tunnel all by moiself...hopin 2 c e light at e other side...hopin 2 go through all tis wid u...but......i dunno wat moi mind iz thinkin either...1min i felt happie...1min i felt so depressed...how i wish moi life iz less complex...tt family matters can reduce alot...how i wish tt u were by moi side...how i wish everythingy in moi life would stop...how i wish i can noe which iz moi true side......coz i'm totally lost in moi emotions...i've cried...so many times...but still...i dunno y...i'll do it time n again......i'm tierd...i wanna slp...but i juz can't slp...eyes gettin more heavy each dae......i dunno how much longer it'll take 4 mi 2 walk out of tis tunnel...but i wanna walk out of here asap...so i can hopefully find moiself...moi emotions again...... 2 u...i'm nt avoidin u...mayb it's mi sensitive...n nt u...mayb it's juz tt we no click s much s last time liao...but i juz dunno y...but IF there's a reason 2 our "communication breakdown"...i'm sorrie...guess it's moi fault...so i'll nt do it again...ahhhhhh...i'm sorrie!!! dun think too much...i'm wrong...4gib mi pls......dui bu qi...dui bu qi...tou shi wo bu hao...dui bu qi...... 2 all of u...5 big gps of frenz...frankly...i dunno wat 2 tell e 40+ of u...i noe u all de yi fan hao yi...but dan though it's onli around e corner...but i no wanna guo tt dae so so so much......i m reallie super n verie touched tt growin so big...1st time i get ppl celebratin wid mi...but dan......how i wish tt i could gib tt dae a pass...coz tt dae will onli sadden mi...i dunno wat 2 sae...nor do i noe wat 2 do...but i'm sorrie...i'm sorrie...n i'm sorrie...
me myself & i 00:13
EMOTIONAL
Mei Xian
nursing student
...full-time...
lamer
stoner
dreamer
...part-time...
having a break
LOVE LIFE
sleep eat dream
especially sushi
mango pudding cake
ice-cream chocolate
WISH LIST
More Clothes
White "Classy" Tote
Sports Bag
Lots of Pumps & Heels
A Wallet
Perm My Hair
New Belts
Digital Camera
DS Lite
Undergo Lasik
Attend a Shoe Design Course
Lots & Lots of $$$$
**need a job right now**
Try New Stuff to Build Confidence
MESSAGE
THINK POSITIVE...
it's the little little things in my life that allow me to hang on...
no matter how life is...it's just the perception point that varies the outcome view...
my life isn't empty but half-filled...and i'm contented...
