Monday, July 31, 2006
hey hey hey...evey1 hu gets 2 read tis b4 goin out tml...pls do rmb 2 bring an umbrella out wid u...s it will b rainin...predicted by mi lahz...back painin mahz...hai...dan headache sum more...ahiyayayaya...mi muz go catch back on moi slp soon...if nt will fall sick again liao......felicia...sorrie 4 e trouble of bakin e brownie twice...all bcoz of mi...it REALLIE REALLIE NICE...n i APPRECIATE it!!! thanx gal...muckzzz......hmmmm...2 moi 2 frenz...when eva u're down...rest assue tt wheneva a door shuts close...another opens...so no matter how long n lonely ur journey may b...there will alwayz b a light at e end...it's juz tt u haven found ur opened door yet...but rmb...if there cums a time tt u all need a listenin ear...can alwayz ring mi up at ANY time...i alwayz will spare time 4 moi frenz no matter when...dun b shy... =) ...cheer up ppl!!! *alwayz look on e bright side on life...whew whew~...whew whew whew whew whew whew~*
me myself & i 23:05
HEY EVERY1!!! i'm back!!! B-A-C-K...BACK!!! *yawn*...tierd out frm both saturdae n sundae...so compressin all n sae ba...hahazzz...abit long though...but it's pretty summarised liao...coz gai shou de...wo dou qing zhi shou le...whakakaka...ya...had an enjoyable time yesterdae...thanx 4 makin mi so tierd n PAI SEH lahz...pig lahz...how could u all b so mean...make mi walk wid e sunflower everywhere...still light a cake in e middle of orchard rd sia?!! AHHHHHH...how could u all...argh...but anyway...still...i reallie had a whole lotta fun n attention......but pls...next time sae gt do wat 1st can anot??? wear dress play bowlin...super weird lahz...i lyk sum weirdo lai...n oso can let mi b metally prepared wat...if nt i die of heart attack liao...haiyoyo......yaya...wanna thank every single 1 of u out there tt celebrated wid mi...rmb moi bdae...n e whole lotta u tt called n msg at e strike of 12 lahz... -_-"' ...n etc etc...thanx so so soooooooooooo verie much...u wun noe how special tis yr was 2 mi...a BIG THANX 2 all of u...oso a BIG sorrie 2 yee shan...u juz dun sound lyk urselk mahz...hee... =p ......n especially 2 julian...coz though he had sum thingy way more impt he still came down......i dunno wat 2 sae...but i noe tt sharin does help alot...though i may nt b of any help...still i hab 2 sae tt if there cums a dae u need a listenin...b sure tt there's 1 here...anytime......coz u're 4eva e 1 listenin 2 ours...lastly...a BIG BIG BIG BIG THANX 2 u!!!yayaya...still gt...i wanna complain abt tt firdaus...big bully...nv cook 4 mi at seoul gardens...nvm liao le...cook 4 him wan liao dan i start 2 cook n eat...he still down there gua gua jiao...keep askin i nt full ar...i nt full ar......wei!!! ppl cook 4 u haven eat lai...sae until lyk i reallie cum out wid e bro n sis of tis mth losz...so mean...*nudge firdaus*......yayayaya...lastly iz 2dae...2 moi beloved burger...ur bdae wish 2 mi iz 2 find moi true luv...but......isn't it e bdae gal makin e wishes??? HAHAZZZ...but still...i help u fulfill ur wish ba...hmmmm...true luv or nt...i've found mine le...though i moiself dunno y hab i choosen tis path...but since i've choosen it...i'll carry on walkin down ...till i finally reach e end...so ya...u sae if i find mine so will u...if nt i help u call ur beloved wei liang liao...dan u 2 can bi chi catch back n lian luo lost diao de gan qing...n carry on u all e gay relationship k...keke......dead beat ritez nw...i need moi bed...ahhhhhh...nitez every1...sweet dreamz...muckzzz...*slpin in progress...lala land*
me myself & i 02:39
Saturday, July 29, 2006
i dun wanna close my eyes...i dun wanna fall aslp...coz i'd miss u babe...n i dun wanna miss a thing...coz even when i dream of u...e sweetest dream will never do...i'd still miss u babe...n i dun wanna miss a thing...everythingy seems s though it juz happened...still so fresh...e look of ur eyes...ur smiles......i can spend moi life lyk tis 4eva...coz i wanna stay lost in e memory 4eva......wo bu zhi dao zhen yang shi qu...ye bu xiang shi qu...lao tian you zai wan nong wo le...deng dai...*confused*
me myself & i 03:13
in abt 11:45mins time i'm goin 4 celebration wid e gp of u ppl......speakin frm e bottom of moi heart...i reallie no wanna celebrate it...n sum of u noe y...but if it makes u all glad...i'll definitely put on a smile n enjoy it 2 e fullest......i'm goin through alot of struggle 2 settle goin out wid u all...i noe bcoz of mi...u all hab planned alot alot of thingys...planned alot of surprises...but gt think of how would i feel??? grow so big...onli i celebrate wid ppl lai...nt tt i'm ungrateful...i m totally grateful...glad...n touched...but reallie...sumthingys r overdone...i dunno how 2 express it n let u ppl noe......but i noe u all will try 2 understand...at least i hope...sorrie 2 spoil ur fun...sorrie...*full of apologies*
me myself & i 02:21
...if u read tis...u may think tt it's juz tt e green-eye monster has taken over mi...but i'm pretty sure how i'm feelin n wat moi tots r...n tt r all nt out of jealousy...wat's jealousy i reallie dunno...coz i'll nv b jealous......2 tis verie close person...i dunno y...but i feel tt u r tryin 2 make e whole world feel how gd u r...i'm nt sayin u're nt...in fact u're great...but sumtimes...i feel tt u're so fake 2wards mi...it's lyk it's alwayz out of concern...but behind u've a motive...frankly...i've seen enuff...in mi...u're nt such a person...nt last time...nt nw...nt eva...i dunno y r u actin tis way...but frm nw...i'll close an eye...i no wanna judge u...nor do i wanna choose moi fren...every1 iz unqiue...every1 iz special...i'll learn 2 accept e way u r if it's all it takes...but frm e bottom of moi heart...i sincerly wanna tell u tis...treat ppl e way u wan them 2 treat u...sumtimes treatin others gd need nt hab 2 hab anythingy in return...pay kindness wid kindness...n nt pay kindness wid evil...*confused by which iz e real u*
me myself & i 02:08
Friday, July 28, 2006
ai yai yai yai yai...2dae woke up late sia...missed sch...hai...but hoh...still nt enuff slp lyk tt...headache headache headache......stone again...sky abit dull le...think ltr will rain...coz moi back iz givin e hint...painin away......ahhhhhh...wo hao lei ar...wo hao xiang ba zhe ge bao fu fang xia...zhe yang wo ju bu xu yao zai yi ge ren du zhi de chen shou zhe yi qie liao le...xing mah??? wat's e pt of holdin on 2 yi ge duan le xian de feng zhen ne??? wo lei le...shi si hou wo xue hui fang shou le...
me myself & i 11:50
hai...can u teach mi how 2 react??? u needed ppl's offer......i tried n i brought it specially 4 u...dun mind goin through e trouble...n dan??? it's lyk gettin a slap ritez at moi face...u were out enjoyin urself...watchin movie......hai...wat can i do??? went hm 2 keep it...n went back 2 sch 2 waste time......hai... *speechless*
me myself & i 02:44
iz it fated tt we met time n again along path ways??? or iz it juz tt lao tian zai zhuo nong wo??? i no lyk 2 c u...coz wheneva i do...i feel e hurt tt u've given mi time n again......but dan...when i saw u...sum how i feel tt u needed mi...i dunno y i felt tt way...but dan...look at u......u've loosen so much weight...kan qi lai ye qiao chui le hen duo......i dunno wat 2 do...n i reallie dunno......u sae b4 tt everythingy would b over soon enuff...but does it oso means tt i'll b erased frm ur memory s well??? nw i'm so confused...i no longer noe wat's reality n wat's dreamz......mayb things aren't s simple s i think they are...i wanna c no more...hear no more...n speak no more...coz i'm tierd...i juz wanna lie dun n nt wake up anymore...AHHHHHH~~~...*tian ar...stop messin wid moi life!!!*
me myself & i 02:22
Thursday, July 27, 2006
met u along e pathways...was it real or juz moi fantasy??? there u r....alwayz there in a corner...in moi tiny little world...would it eva b e same again??? i wish i reallie knew...moi world revolves 4 u alone...holdin on 2 moi tears...havin a pain tt beyond words could describe......but i'm no longer in moi dreams...coz i'm movin on......i need directions...i need ans...but i'm havin none......i'm no longer alone...i hab moi frenz...but dan which iz e true mi??? when i'm smilin or when i'm nt??? emotions r in a mess...sayin so much...but no1 hears moi words......u're so near...n i'm tryin 2 reach out...yet still u seem so far......i wanna b back where i belong...in a world of moi own...where i face no reality...where i face no tears...where i face no hurt......but moi bubbles were burst by u...nw...i can no longer dream...n no longer m i a dreamer......soon it'll b e last time u remainin in heart...no wanna 2 continue 2 b e 1 hu iz there chi chi de n sha sha de chen shou all tis by moiself...wanna b free...free frm tis confused feelins n illusions u're alwayz givin mi...... *fadin away n lettin go*
me myself & i 04:34
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
nw...i'm so depressed...hai...been treatin every single 1 in moi life...true n whole-heartedly...nv guarded against any1...nv lied 2 any1 either......but dan...time n again ppl juz dun believe...n i understand......but every1 noes how frank n st 4ward i can b...i encouraged ppl...but e reply i get back was "all i needed iz ur encouragement n nt all tis"...but didn't i juz did encouraged u??? sob...explained...n u reply ya...tt's e kinda encouragement i wanna hear...lyk...hallow......i noe u stressed lahz...but hallow...i juz encouraged u...out of kind intention....but gt slapped back rite in2 e face...next ur tellin mi tt tt's e encouragement tt u wanna hear...lyk wateva lahz...i dunno lahz...sae tt juz wan ppl 2 reallie reallie praise u...encourage u...but i've doned it!!! yet u sae it's nt wat u wanna hear...u wan true encouragement......so mine r so worthless 2 u izit??? i mean...tis r reallie frm e bottom of moi heart lahz...if u think they're nt n wanna hear beta n sweeter stuffs...by all means go look 4 sum1 hu lyks 2 sweet-tok...coz i reallie dunno how!!! n it's so nt mi 2 do it...n i nv will......coz i believe u can...so i said tt i believe u can...nt u humour u...believe it or nt...tt's it...the end...end of storie!!! *argh...y no1 believes???*
me myself & i 02:16
...life...hen fu zha......heart...brokened......emotions...swingin......mind...yi pian kong bai......walkin out of tis dark tunnel all by moiself...hopin 2 c e light at e other side...hopin 2 go through all tis wid u...but......i dunno wat moi mind iz thinkin either...1min i felt happie...1min i felt so depressed...how i wish moi life iz less complex...tt family matters can reduce alot...how i wish tt u were by moi side...how i wish everythingy in moi life would stop...how i wish i can noe which iz moi true side......coz i'm totally lost in moi emotions...i've cried...so many times...but still...i dunno y...i'll do it time n again......i'm tierd...i wanna slp...but i juz can't slp...eyes gettin more heavy each dae......i dunno how much longer it'll take 4 mi 2 walk out of tis tunnel...but i wanna walk out of here asap...so i can hopefully find moiself...moi emotions again......2 u...i'm nt avoidin u...mayb it's mi sensitive...n nt u...mayb it's juz tt we no click s much s last time liao...but i juz dunno y...but IF there's a reason 2 our "communication breakdown"...i'm sorrie...guess it's moi fault...so i'll nt do it again...ahhhhhh...i'm sorrie!!! dun think too much...i'm wrong...4gib mi pls......dui bu qi...dui bu qi...tou shi wo bu hao...dui bu qi......2 all of u...5 big gps of frenz...frankly...i dunno wat 2 tell e 40+ of u...i noe u all de yi fan hao yi...but dan though it's onli around e corner...but i no wanna guo tt dae so so so much......i m reallie super n verie touched tt growin so big...1st time i get ppl celebratin wid mi...but dan......how i wish tt i could gib tt dae a pass...coz tt dae will onli sadden mi...i dunno wat 2 sae...nor do i noe wat 2 do...but i'm sorrie...i'm sorrie...n i'm sorrie...
me myself & i 00:13
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
i'm feelin so empty n blue again...how i wish time could stop...everythingy juz freezes...dan mayb at tt pt nth will go through moi mind...nth at all...tots n emotions overwhelmin every nw n dan...but ritez nw...at tis verie moment......i juz dun feel anything...i'm numbed by e on goins in moi life...i juz wanna b simple...but moi tots n life r alwayz so complex......tots of u keep appearin......but dan again...y would they appear in e 1st place??? i too wanna noe...i noe how much hurt i've recieved frm u...yet nth stops mi frm disallowin u 2 hurt mi time n again...i noe how much feelins r envoled...n wat would happen...i dunno wat can i do 2 prevent them frm frm happenin...but since we ended up in tis way so long ago...i've told moiself 2 nt turn back but b strong 2 carry on walkin forward widout lookin back...but if there's a choice...i reallie wish i can once again shi yi...dan mayb dan i can stop thinkin of so much so much...but i just can't stop thinkin...all e tots juz run in continuously...i'm lyk worryin n thinkin of so much 4 nth......coz no matter how much or hard i worrie n think...nth will b solved...n no1 noes how terrible i feel...still i can't stop thinkin...ahhhhhh...argh...i hate walkin down tis lonely rd moiself...where there's every1 tt i can c...but i'm juz too transparent 2 b noticed...too bottled up 2 b understood...where were u when i needed u e most??? u left mi... *broken hearted*
me myself & i 02:27
Monday, July 24, 2006
y would things turn out tis way??? it was actuallie a verie small matter...yet ended up tis way...i nv wan thinks 2 turn out lyk tis...do u reallie think tt there iz onli her tryin so hard 2 maintain e frenship tt u built??? it takes 2 hands 2 clap...being frenz iz a kinda fate...iz nt by sae okay b 2gether every1 will b 2gether...we hab 2 b wk wid each other 2 b frenz......maintain iz oso e same...it iz nt onli her tt iz upset...every1 iz...b it wat stand they cumin frm...we're still concern...if we're nt...we wun bother abt yesterdae...if i'm nt...i wun make e effort 2 rush down after moi ug event wid all moi u n tierdness......tokin out iz so much easier...but when every1 iz down or hab prob...i'll alwayz rush down in e 1st min 2 lend moi shoulder...but when i need a listenin ear...every1 juz can't seem 2 tell though it's obvious...does it reallie matter if i'm around...nv once did ppl reallie c mi when i'm down...i can b seen by all of u when i'm smilin...but when i'm cryin...all of u were by moi side...but weren't there 4 mi...but 4 sum1 else...frankly...it doesn't bother mi...coz since young i nv recieved any...it doesn't if i recieve it nw or nt......u sae tt i'm bein selfish 2 nt care abt her feelins...but u dunno how i felt at tt moment...i may seem strong 2 every1...n i too in fact wanna b...but juz bcoz u din c mi cry...doesn't meant tt i'm strong......mayb u think tt wat u sae or ask did nth 2 mi...but it did...n alot......4 moi verie close frenz...they noe tt i onli put others at heart n nt moiself...but u juz labelled mi s self-centered...i did nt cum 2 tt decision on impulsive...but i went through alot of thinkin...b4 settin moi mind up...i considered every1's feelin...tots...n interest...i strongly felt tt every1 needed him more dan mi...i will alwayz luv u all n care 4 u all lyk alwayz...b there when u all need mi still...juz tt i leave e gp...it'll benefit every1... =") ...i cried till eyes swollen dan cum 2 tis decision...sam can respect moi decision n nt force mi in2 sumthingy which i reallie no wish 2...our frenship will alwayz remain...let us nw let bygone b bygone k??? n still maintain our happie frenship...sob...k??? *lost in direction*
me myself & i 10:55
Sunday, July 23, 2006
slp so little...actually...i oso do nt noe if i actually slept......went down 2 church 2 help out in full u...dan rushed down 2 watch treasa's performance wid all moi barang barang...i new hu would appear...i new wat would happen...but still i went...tried n tried so hard...but still i did it......nw...i feel so depressed...n drained out...nobody will actually noe wat's goin through in moi mind...nor noe how i feel......e probs i'm facin r always building up...hm...class frenz...SA frenz...personal...n financially...can u reallie tell tt i'm havin all these probs??? i feel strongly tt though i hab probs...i dun mind sufferin all of them quietly...alone...coz at least in front of every1...they c e happie side of mi...b it ture or fake happiness they c of mi...i'm still brin joy 2 them...n i nv 2 b e source of unhappiness......at tis pt of time...cry oso cried alreadie...thinking oso hab sorted out alreadie......n i hab cum 2 1 conclusion...in ur heart...u all can dun hab mi...but u all can't dun hab him...since I can b transparent most of e time...might s well i leave frm all ur lives...dan he leave......coz he can b a much beta fren...hu will b there 4 u all when u all r down...when u all needed sum1 2 cheer u all up...wateva he can...i can't...so maintain tis frenship between u all......sam...thanx 4 everythin...u're always a great fren...dun think little of urself...take care evey1...bye~
me myself & i 22:02
2 yee shan...frankly...i think there's no pt anymore...but since i'd sae i'll tell u...guess i'll do it here instead......actually tis was a verie small matter...i oso dunno y it'll end up lyk tt...okay...it started when mi n sam was out eatin 2gether...we were predictin wat would happen between him n her...n oso sae tt if it reallie does cum through...e both of us will actually end up in bad terms bcoz of them......tt verie nitez...sam n i actually found out tt wat we predicted actually turned out 2 b true...but we weren't angrie a single bit...we were juz disappointed tt y it happen yet e both of them nv let us noe...okay...dan they sae tt they wanna sort out their feelins b4 lettin us noe...we too oso understood...but we were disappointed tt they cheated on us...i mean...if we asked...n it's true...y can't u all openly admit it??? y lied??? wat's more iz tt when t was wid sam n i...t actually said tt she needed 2 rush off s she had 2 mit a verie impt fren...but in fact...tt verie impt fren of hers iz j...i n sam felt so hurt lah...it's lyk...he too iz our fren...u wanna mit him...by all means...go ahead...we r nt stopping them or wat...but......it juz hurt us...nvm...at least she bothered 2 explain herself n her actions...but wat i couldn't take it was tt he didn't bothered...n treat everythin s per normal...s his usual self...happie-go-lucky attitude......wat we had in mind was tt if u all wanna develop or wat...let us noe we can actually help...if u dun wanna tell...if we as...speak e truth...we asked 2 gib our blessins...nt stop u all frm developin...we r nt so self-centered...hu thinks tt e world revolves onli around e 2 off us...tt's y e followin dae sam n i arranged 2 mit them...2 tok heart 2 heart...i woke up super early 4 them...but we ended up sayin nth...i din tok...coz i no wanna blow in fj...n i noe if i did started...it's hard 4 mi 2 hold moi peace...coz i'm verie st forward...so if i reallie start...i'll go on n on n on...till e verie last line...so i typed in moi labi...will tryin 2 do moi poject at e same time which iz gonna due e next dae...n it's nt done at all...so i stressed...tt's y i no wanna speak...chose 2 typed...dan i ended up leavin...lyk 2dae losz......err...t n j msged mi once...i nv reply lahz...coz sam told mi wat they sae liao...but t still gt explain 2 mi lahz...tt's y i can 4gib t...can 4gib any1 hu admits their mistake...but can't tolerate those hu dun admit yet still can b so arrogant at times...but i reallie feel so......nvm...mayb it's moi pt of view which caused every1 2 b in such diff position ritez nw ba......every1...i'm truly sorrie...4 e diff position i placed every1 in...sorrie......
me myself & i 22:00
iz nt tt i wanna i'm givin attitude...it's juz tt i noe tt i'll blow moi top if i sae sumthin...tt's y i choose 2 keep moi comments n leave...coz i no wanna cause things 2 turn out much more ugly......i noe...wat ritez do i hab 2 b angrie...but can i ask...wat ritez do u hab 2 sae mi...i nv glared b4...sad 2 sae...tt's moi eyes...it's was lyk tt since young due 2 e environment i grew up in...i dun lie...n i dun lyk others doin it 2 mi...coz u will nt understand how hurt i'll b...s i received alot since young...n i no wanna receive it frm moi frenz...wat's more iz tt all u cared abt iz urself...super self-centered...y??? y ppl can't cheat u...yet u can??? wat kinda stupid attitude iz tis??! n e impression u gave mi iz tt all u care abt iz ur pride...yes i admit tt i'm in e wrong 2 nt reply ur msg...but i can assure u tt if it was sam tt do e same thingy...u will definitely nt treat her e way u did 2 mi...n i reallie can't understand y treasa can put herself in others shoe n u can't......u sae tt u wanna b e bad guy...but r u??? no...nt at all...coz nw...frankly...i dun mind bein any1...anythingy...coz bein e bad guy izn't e 1st time...it doesn't matter a single bit...if u wan mi 2 sae...tt's all tt i hab 2 sae...coz nw...i find tt there's no pt at all...coz no matter wat i sae...it doesn't matter...
me myself & i 21:58
2dae...wha...sick...dan work...dan so pissed off...ppl work get paid when do nth lorx...hai~......dan 2dae e weddin rather meaningful losz...c till sad sad...emotions overwhelmed mi...again tears rolled down e cheeks......i said 2 moiself nv 2 shed another drop of tear over him...but still......i'm so useless...wo yao wo zhi ji jian qiang...but it juz seems 2 mi tt i'm nt...n it's nt workin no matter how hard i try 2 b......luv iz 2 scarifice...2 4give...2 bao rong...2 share...but i juz dun understand y it juz alwayz 1 sided de fu chu ne??? totally depressed...i juz wanna walk out of tis dark tunnel...2 c e beautiful light at e other end of e tunnel...n juz wanna find sum1 2 walk wid mi at e lowest pt of life...but no1 will...coz no1 will eva noe when i'm down...seein sum1 happie iz 1 thin...knowin if e person iz reallin happie or iz actin happie......nobody will understand...coz i will nv open up no matter wat...*depressed*...
me myself & i 00:53
Saturday, July 22, 2006
YES!!! guess wat??? it's e end of fridae...n hallow saturdae~~...tis wk was disastrous!!! i so bz...so stressed...so tired...so disappointed...n so worn out...i slp lyk tis small amt of hrs...n spent e rest of moi time stressin n bzin...2 think abt it nw...i slept less dan 10hrs in 5daes lahz...but nw...i'm so relief n happie lahz..i passed moi clinical lab...moi ica presentation...n e drama was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo nice n successful lahz...but reallie glad i hab great frenz 2 help mi out...if nt 4 them...i think moi presentation wouldn't even b ready 2dae lahz...coz it's done so last min...n tt moi clinical oso xiong duo ji shao...THANX PALZ...I LUV U......all i feel nw iz pain achin EVERYWHERE...e sandman pourin more n more sand on moi sand...n all i wanna do nw iz slp...think tt's e most heavenly thingy 2 do ritez nw lahz...hahazzz...coz i'm a super punctured tyre...*pssssssssssssssssssssssssst*...no air anymore...totally flat flat flat ritez nw...keep switchin off since 4+ tis mornin...but gotta force moiself 2 switch on......but nw...MOI BEDDY BED BED...HERE I CUM~~!!! so ya...ppl...go chill n get lost...mi need moi beauty slp 4 nw...*switched off*...slpin in progress...pls do nt disturb...
me myself & i 01:22
Thursday, July 20, 2006
i'm so so verie verie disappointed with u 2 lahz...nt onli mi...n sam too...wat we felt was exactly e same...i mean look here...we r nt sayin tt u 2 can't go in2 a relationship lahz...but hallow...hab u 2 eva spare a tot 4 us??? we r a big family of frenz...i can't sae tt we're super close n gd...but seriously...weren't we all happie s juz frenz??? muz there alwayz b other motives 2 everybody's action??? c...on 1 hand u sae u lyk t...n u sae u lyk ys......but when u 2 noe tt t n ys can't accept both ur relation...dan u 2 develop feelin 4 each other...seriously...r u 2 serious??? or r u 2 usin each other 2 tian bu one another's kong jian??? pls lahz...take time n reallie sit down n seriously go through e qns lahz...if all these r happenin due 2 our jokes...dan let mi tell u 2 2 reallie grow up...n stop bein so immature in terms of tots lahz...if reallie tt u 2 r seriously true in feelins 4 each other...dan by all means...carry on...we will reallie gib u 2 our zhu fus...but wat's e meanin of cheatin OUR feelins??! iz nt juz 1 or 2...but 4!!! don't u think u all abit de tai guo fen??? hey...we may b over reactin...but if we dun even treasure our big family of frenz de frenship...dan would we b reactin tis way??! izit fair 2 us tt juz bcoz of u 2 e bgr relation prob caused our frenship 2 turn sour??? dan wat abt OUR big family of frenship??? juz let it go??? iz it reallie worth it??! I MEAN...THINK ABT IT LAHZ~~...*i totally disappointed...beyond words could explain moi feelins ritez nw*...
me myself & i 01:44
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
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tou shang de na yi pian tian kong...you shiye xu yao bie ren he wo yi qi fen xiang de......i may lyk 2 bottle up alot...but at times...ppl will juz enter in 2 moi life... n sumhow...i juz share wid them...xie xie ni men!!! muckzzz...hab sum1 2 listen iz rather gd lahz...though tt person may nt b able 2 help...but by listenin...it reallie helps alot (if u din noe tt)...hahazzz...sorrie...4 goin on n on...i too no lyk 2 sae grandma storie...but it's a long long storie...hehe...soooooo...ya...pardon mi 4 wat i've done...heez......but reallie reallie...moi mind iz so peaceful nw...n i feel so so verie verie light tt i can fly...~~i believe i can fly...i believe i can touch e sky~~...keke...i need frenz...n 2 every single 1 of u out there...if u think u're nt need by mi...u're wrong!!! soooooooooooo~ wrong...in moi heart...each n every1 iz special...no matter in wat so eva way u r...u're unique...n most imptly...u're ensured a place in moi heart alwayz......juz lyk e sky will alwayz hab sufficient spaces 4 e starie starzzz... *smilez*
me myself & i 01:25
Sunday, July 16, 2006
been out 2dae wid sam...treasa...angela...jeremy...jing wei...rather glad...coz dunno when was e last time i went out n let down moi hair liao...zhu zhu can alwayz cheer mi up wheneva i'm down...but honestly e joy can onli last 4 a moment no matter how much i try 2 make it last longer...e smile on moi face...juz can't stay.........b happie...hu dun wanna 2??? if there's a choice...i oso wanna choose 2 b happie throughout moi life...but i nt born in2 1 where there's happiness luv or peace...so i can onli find all those frm frenz...but frankly...bein happie...iz ez said dan done...been puttin on a brave front since e dae e relationship ended...can any1 tell mi how 2 let go a nearly 4yrs relationship??? sob...there r so many differences...so many probs...but we'd went through them all...till tis far......we've part...n i've been strugglin verie hard 2 look 4 a float...4 joy...4 e way 2 move on...n i did...wid so many other probs stressin mi at e same time......i was so stressed out...so depressed...but i reallie hab great frenz...hu reallie stood by mi at moi lowest pt of life...i'm verie touched...but where were u??? finally i've set moi heart 2 b happie...2 stop cryin over u...n stop strugglin......u appeared...bursted e float tt i found after so so long of strugglin...bursted moi bubble of joy...caused mi 2 cry again...n once again hurt mi...since u've stepped out of moi life...y can't u juz stay out??! cumin back n state tt...i'm totally hurt...i'm nv shallow...but e way u sae it makes it tt way...wat's more iz tt u sae i'm nt e gal u wan...yet u still sae tt u luv mi??? y??! y every1 iz toyin wid moi feelins??! treatin mi s a spare??! m i bein naive n foolish??! 2 EVERY1 in moi life...i given them all moi trust...all of it...but since sch started...i realised tt i'm makin moiself 2 turn out lyk a big fat fool!!! even moi frenz cheat moi feelins...wat more can i sae abt u??! i believe every1 time n again...but it seems 2 mi tt e more i believed n trusted...e more hurt i'll b......u should b e 1 hu understand mi e most...but it goes 2 show tt u r nt...i've been hurt n cheated enuff...i wanna protect moiself frm all e hurt tt i can get frm every1...but does tt mean tt i muz keep n take away e trust tt i've given 2 every1??? i'm verie lost...i'm reallie depressed...how i wish i can reallie reallie isolate moiself 4 gd...dan i can reallie save all moi tears...tears which rolled 4 ppl hu r nt worth...but...it's nt mi...so unlyk moi character...i muz b a total idoit 2 b so dumb 2 trust every1 wholeheartdly no matter how many times they've betrayed moi turst n hurt mi......*slap moiself*...when can i wake up??? when can i walk out of tis mess...i reallie dunno...wo zhen de yao wo zhi ji jian qiang...coz no matter how strong i may look...deep down...i reallie reallie reallie need a verie strong support 2 hang on...but i'll nv find a support...sob...so teach mi 2 b strong...pls...i juz wanna b strong...strong enuff 2 finish tis path......
me myself & i 00:34
Friday, July 14, 2006
nw break...2dae super long breaks sia...lucky gt sam...we 2 verie funnie...pei pei here...pei pei there...time past so much faster tt way...frenz...*smile*...hahazzz...kk...past few daes all verie sad sad de lehz...so so verie much hab happened...but nw...let bygone b bygone...dun reallie need 2 hold on n let everythingy turn sour ba...ya...so...hmmm...ya...frm tis pt of time...mi wanna b HAPPIE...hehe...noe hoh...upset verie nan guo wan lai...but ar...gt frenz by e side 2 support e feelin iz gd dao~~~~~~...ya...hee...nw waitin 2 go 4 tutorial...i hab sch lah julian..i'm nt s xian kong s u think i m lahz...i onli verie xian durin all tis breaks lahz...nth beta 2 do...stone alwayz s usual...i miss sam...keke...nvm...ltr can c again liao le...hmmm...nw dan noe hoh...all e guyz reallie can't multi-task...do thingys can concentrate dao~~~~~~...wha...i envy...how wish can focus n set moi mind 2 concentrate 2 sumthingy sia...but wheneva i do...i'll start 2 zzzzzz...hee...can teach mi how??? mmm...mayb i juz nt determined enuff...*yawn*...there i go again...hehe...pai seh sia...kk go lesson liao le...
me myself & i 12:57
Thursday, July 13, 2006
dunno...moi bloggin time iz lyk...weird wan losz...but anyway...doesn't reallie matter lahz...hmmm...2dae...nonono...should sae juz nw liao...dance...i sufferin lyk hell...coz tis few wks dunno y...back de injury super pain...eveydae pain...dan e doc e pain killer lyk of no help sia...hai...sad...lousy med...stupid pain......dan do stretchin till verie ja lat...super duper pain...tears oso cum out...hai...dan eat e pain killer n apply e cream...lyk no use...hai......stupid injury...all ur fault......class stuff...count case close le ba...but though it's over...e sour faces r still around...hai...ppl should juz get over n done wid...no pt stayin there...at least i learnt tt frm e hard way...so take it frm sum1 hu noes...so many thingys go through in moi head...n so many many qns...when will i get moi ans??? n how can i get them??? guess i still hab 2 carry on searchin sia......hahazzz...ltr sum1 read liao will sae i verie e sad sad...msn nick so sad...blog oso so sad...lucky he nt emotional lyk mi sia...if nt he oso will sad liao...whakaka...oya...sae till tis...i rmb feli...she ar naughty gal...keep snatchin moi tai chi n disturb mi...c...help mi design blog oso suan mi in moi blog...piss feli...gib sum face CAN??! hehe...juz kiddin...but reallie wanna thank her lahz...if nt 4 her...nat...tian shun...xiu ling...rab...n sila......dunno moi past 1 wk till nw...iz how 2 guo wan...a million thanx...n a billion hugs n kisses...i luv u guyz alwayz...ren shi ni men shi wo de fu qi...ren shi le wo shi ni men de bu xing...HAHAZZZ...muckzzz...
me myself & i 23:55
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
ahhh...dance!!! prac dance wid sam n treasa...reallie wanna thank yee shan...jeremy...n julian......coz they take time 2 teach us...but reallie reallie wanna thank julian alot...coz of us...he nv eat till 10+...haiyo...make mi feel bad bad sia...hee...but verie happie...i noe e steps liao le!!! whakaka...so happie...n moi stress r gone after dance...hai...dance frenz reallie nice...dunno y...reallie dun feel stressed wid them at all...reallie glad...so many so many of u treat mi so gd...*touched*...thanx...meixian reallie verie greatful 2 noe u all...muckzzz...
me myself & i 23:10
wat are frenz??? it reallie puzzles mi......frenz r hard 2 find...true frenz r even harder 2 find...u often hear tt frm every1 everywhere...but do u reallie understand it's meanin??? i do...after wat juz happened...it's s though i can c every1's true colour...frenz...r there when it's time 4 fun...when there aren't any probs...r those hu sae tt they care...but do they??? onli they noe......true frenz...r there during e happiest n lowest time...r those hu will stand by u durin e most diff times...r those hu reallie reallie care...sobsob...in moi life...i'm reallie glad 2 hab noe u all...though we juz noe 4 few mths...but i'm thankful n greatful towards u all...n i will treasure u guyz......but b it true or untrue frenz...i will nv judge them...nor strike them of moi list of frenz...coz i believe...fate brought us 2gether...tt's y we became frenz...whether u lyk it or nt...u're still moi fren......
me myself & i 22:00
sobsob...2dae sad...dunno y...everything juz happen...class...cca...personal...life sux...hu 2 trust??? n hu nt 2??? every1 r on their guards...2 prevent themselves frm gettin hurt...gettin cheated...but i dun......n i dun wish 2 at all...y should i??! y can't anybody nt hurt mi??? i reallie wanna noe wat's e feelin lyk of nt bein hurt...frenz...family......i'm confused...but 4 those hu r there by mi...frm e bottom of moi heart...thanx alot galz...i reallie appreciated it alot...sobsob...thank u... =")
me myself & i 00:35
Friday, July 07, 2006
hahazzz...gt blog but nv posted b4...weird ritez......bo bian...coz i technology idiot...so juz created 4 fun...dan 2dae feli help mi design...dan she did sumtingy tt's soooooo cutez n funnie lahz...i haven post...she tag liao...whakaka...i noe i noe...i help u sae..."sick lahz"...hehe...bleahz...thanx alot ar gal...i tierd oso muz blog 2dae...coz of u...muckzzz...hahazzz......hmmm...tis wk stressed out lyk nobody's business lahz...ica...presentation...dance assesments...etc...hai...but hope i stressed lyk siao...e hard work will pay back lahz...no wanna do badly in moi studies lai...i'll heart break de...*sad*......class...iz so complicated...y can't things b simple??? hab soooooo many probs keep appearin...n i juz dunno wat 2 do lahz...lyk duh~...i'm onli human lahz...lyk save mi...sumbody...argh...
me myself & i 00:28
tou shang de na yi pian tian kong...you shi